Saturday, January 13, 2007

"Resistance is always an invitation from the Spirit. Pay attention to it. Honor it." And, of course, the resistance can arise in the director, the directee, or both. For example:

On Monday, I checked my e-mail for the first time since arriving on campus Sunday morning. I sat in a chair in the computer lab adjacent to Geneva Terrace, and jiggled the mouse to activate the computer screen. Sunlight poured through the windows. It was a glorious day. I typed in my user name and password as I have done countless times. But when I clicked "enter" to open my account, I felt a sudden construction in my upper chest. I paused and thought, "whoa." My body was trying to tell me something. I took a slow, deep breathe, then exhaled rapidly. I stopped for a moment to center myself before proceeding to read and respond to the messages in my inbox.

As I have reflected on this experience, I have gleaned at least two possible lessons:

(1) In general, check e-mail more mindfully. To help myself be fully present to both e-mail and other daily tasks, I am going to uninstall yahoo messenger and check e-mail no more than once an hour -- not just whenever one arrives.

(2) For next January, I am considering setting up an e-mail auto-response message that would instruct anyone who e-mailed me to call the church office in case of an emergency -- so that I will not have to check e-mail for the entire three weeks I am here. My blog and cell phone will be my only links to the outside world.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Maybe you can also practice mindfulness by limiting the amount of e-mail checking you do at home. And it may be helpful to put the laptop in one room where it always stays (i.e. limit it's location). Oh, and a long time ago, in a communications theory textbook, I read that one of the best ways to combat Internet addiction is to check e-mail once an hour. So you're onto something.